So as of now, I am beginning the severing of contact with other people besides my family and therapist. So yeah. Just like the title.
Although it must seem like its stupid, I think I need to cut off contact with people. It came up to me yesterday, while at lunch with some friends. I don’t know what it is that is making me want to do this, but I kind of a just want to send one of those mass text messages, and just text half my contacts and say, sorry, I can talk to you anymore, please understand, or something like that. Although I know that wouldn’t work, because I quite literally need human contact to keep myself from insanity, it somehow seems likens good plan to me. Why? Seriously? I mean, I would stay in contact with the nost basic people I NEED to talk to, such as my mother, my teachers, my therapist, and yeah. It would be interesting to see if I could do it. Homeslty, I think I could. Should I send that message? I don’t think it would be all that bad… I would just need a new spot to eat lunch from now on. Truth is, j haven’t found one. I’ve tried various practice rooms, closet spaces, and corners, but none of them really seem to work out. I can’t eat in the BR anymore, and I’m not sure why. I just sort of feel unwelcome everytime I go in there.
I dont know. We’ll see.
Right now, I’m sitting in my 3rd period class, bored as shit. Yeah, we just finished the “English Language Arts ” portion of this lame test, and it begs the question, is this crap really necessary. I mean, I know that this gives the state of Cali a sense of how we’re doing, but can’t they just give us a little piece of paper, and just let us take 20 minutes to fill it all out, instead of a week of solid 80 question tests? Really, I find these tests pointless, and I know I’m not the only one to feel this way. Some of you all may as well. Anyways,
Thats all for today. Or maybe not. Who knows. Maybe I’ll get bored in math…